Friday, July 15, 2011

Ganah, The Wonderful...



Last night Annabella, Lillian, Sophia (sisters) and Isla (a cousin) - 4 of our beloved chicklettes all spent the night. We read, played games and said their bedtime prayers. It was a very sweet time.

I think most of all Val - "Ganah" - is the best grandmother and friend to these children. I used to wonder why it was that Val and I got along so well, we were so different (plus, she often doesn't think my humor is all that funny) but I have come to realize that her infinite love and care toward this family, toward me is something I took for granted for a very long time.

I just love this picture of her calming Sophia at my mother's funeral/burial. How foreign to a small child, is death. No matter, Val has been able to always make tough things smooth out with these grandkids.

I used to find reasons to be convinced Val and I could never be what we have become. I am sad and sorry that it took cancer to teach me so many important lessons. [They paved paradise and put up a parking lot. Don't it always seem to go, you don't know what you have til its gone...]

I'm Back On...


(check out that "gut" -- awful!!)

When Val was diagnosed with her recurrent cancer last September 6th (2010) I thought, "who cares?" So I quit my effort to take better care of myself; lose weight, eat right, walk, and CHANGE!

Well, I am not weighing the most I have ever weighed (lbs. of record to follow) and so, I have announced to my family that I am (a) BACK! (b) going to prep for another 5k walk/run -and- (c) end this madness of self destruction.

I love life, and though I am so very sad to see Val slipping away from me (she is on hospice now, no more treatments, she is terminal and probably has only 3-4 months to live) I come from a line of LONG LIFE LIVERS, so I need to tune up, and get it together. For me and for my family.

Here we go again.... "I'm Back............."

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Adding Up...

Math...

Everything in life is math...

We'll Start Again...

It wasn't long after my last post that "my world" fell apart. And, as a consequence, so did my life change. Val's cancer recurred. And, this time, its not going to get better. Until tonight, well for the last 5 months, I pretty much ate everything I could get my hands on.

Well no more.

Back to basics:

Water
Protein mostly
Big breakfasts
Normal lunches
Tiny Dinners
Snacks with health in mind

Goal: December 31, 2012 - weight: 240 (which means I need to lose 135 lbs)

We'll Start Again!